Friday, 13 November 2009

today

A day for remembering. A day for honouring my Mum, and lighting a candle for her. It feels like yesterday and yet, somehow, time has marched forwards and three years have flown by. I don't think the missing part ever goes away, but there are so many happy memories that it's hard to feel down for long.


I was planning to walk here this afternoon. A place very dear to my heart, and a place my Mum loved too. A place where I can feel her presence in the wind, in the smell of the sea, in every step I take along the cliffs, and in every pebble I collect from the beach.

But today the rain is lashing down, the wind is howling, and staying in was a more attractive option. Snuggled up with Walter, some knitting, my winter duvet, and a good book.

And for the weekend, I have a new toy to play with. One of these. I can't wait!

Have fun, I think we're in for a wild and wet weekend.

19 comments:

A Bun Can Dance said...

Dear Diana
A time of reflection for you. I can feel the draw of the beach which you wanted to walk on, but soon the lashing rain will pass and you can enjoy your time with your Mum's spirit close by as you walk on the beach. All death is heart-rending, but a sudden loss is so traumatic and it takes a long time for the shock to ebb away, doesn't it? Take care of yourself, dear Diana, and enjoy your happy memories.
Sending much love,
Denise x

Pomona said...

It all gets better with time doesn't it, and easier to remember and smile, and the tears are fewer and far between, I find - but suddenly little things set you off again. I hope your memories are happy ones today, and that you have a lovely weekend!

Pomona x

dottycookie said...

Thinking of you. Take care, Diana.

Maureen said...

I know how you feel as my mother passed away on 24th Nov 2005. I miss her so much. Cherished memories can never be taken away, so our loved ones are always in our hearts and thoughts even if they are out of sight and touch. I hope the rain stops soon and you get to walk in the place you both loved. xx

JuliaB said...

Thinking of you Diana. x

Simone said...

I remember you posting about your Mum last year Diana. I can hardly believe that post was a year ago! Have a lovely weekend with warm memories of your lovely Mum and snuggle up with Walter. Have fun with your new paper cutting/trimmer thingy-me-bob too!!! x

louise said...

The missing part doesn't ever go away, nor do the memories, nor do the tears. A virtual hug is here for you Diana. The wind and gales are here too, so the weekend may well be a complete washout. Enjoy your lovely book, snuggle up with Walter, and get trimming! x

liZZie said...

I am glad for you that you have happy and loving memories to draw on. Karen on this blog http://moonlightandhares.blogspot.com/2009/11/this-day-three-years-ago.html has also posted about losing her mum on this day. X

Lyn said...

Enjoy some peace at home today and smile at some memories.
Love
Lyn
xxx

kristina said...

Pouring rain here in Virginia too. Thinking of you and so glad you have such a nice cozy indoors-y weekend planned. K x

Lisa said...

Thinking of you today. Hope you are warm and cosy indoors with happy memories, you're right the missing of someone so special is constant.
Take care
Lisa xx

Diane said...

Thinking of you and sending love your way.

xxxx

Griffin said...

Ah yes - Mortuis Libamur... let us drink to the dead and in doing so remind our mothers, both here and gone... Ad te levavi animam meam - I lift up my soul to you.

I miss my mother too, she was born in April and went in May. I like to think that she just went out of her body for a walk and was reborn in the springtime.

Tracy x said...

thinking of you and sending so much love and gentle hugs...
t x

Cottage Garden said...

Dear Diana, I hope your walk on Friday afternoon brought you close to your Mum with memories of happy times you shared. The missing doesn't go away but it does get easier to bear - I lost my Dad five years ago in October and can't believe how quickly time has passed by ...
The wild and windy weather is worth it when you have dear Walter to snuggle up with!
Jeanne x

Pipany said...

I missed this somehow Diana. I can't wuite believe it is a year ago you posted about your Mum and the loss of her. I hope the weekend provided solace for you my lovely and that the sad times are balanced by the happy memories. Much love xxx

Sally Anne said...

Thinking of you and hoping you are able to go to Prussia Cove very soon.
xxx

Jackie said...

It must be so difficult. My Mum is my best friend(next to my husband) and I can't imagine being without her.

The Curious Cat said...

Oh! This entry almost made me cry...mum's are so special aren't they? My mum can be a difficult one but you still love them no matter what. It is good that you can go places to feel near to her once again...it is good to miss your mum - it shows how much you loved one another. Thinking of you deeply... xxx